Saturday, July 3, 2010

Miss-Beckie-Louise's Week 8 Entry: Truth or Dare


Miss-Beckie-Louise's Choice: Both

Truth or Dare

I couldn't believe we were doing this. We were only meant to be going to a small party and now here I am standing against the wall with Brian in just my underwear, while wearing bunny ears. I could kill Chantelle for putting us up to this, and I am never playing Truth or Dare again.

Why didn't I just go with truth? Seriously, it would have saved me this much embarrassment.

I was so embarrassed that I ended up covering my eyes, it was pure torture and I had no idea what was going to happen next. I knew that Brian wasn't as embarrassed as me, but I knew for a fact that his cheeks were a little red. I mean whose wouldn't?

While we were standing against the wall, I began to think.

Brian and I had always been friends, but I always had a tinsey winsey crush on him. I mean who wouldn't? He was gorgeous, kind, and a total darling. I've never told him how I felt about him, and thankfully, I never will because I know it would ruin everything.

I have no idea how long we stood there , with our hands over our eyes, but my legs hurt and my feet were dead from standing too long when I felt something wrap around my shoulders. I took my hands off my eyes and looked at what was now covering me.

I sighed in relief, it was my shawl. I wrapped it around my body a bit tighter and went to get some clothes on. When I returned completely dressed, I found Brian who was sitting once again with the group.

"Hey Charlotte! Come on over," he said. I hesitantly walked over and sat down next to him. He made me feel safe whenever I was near him so I knew that nothing bad could happen now.

The game of truth or dare carried on and then it was my turn.

"Charlotte, truth or dare?" Natalie asked. She was such a gossip, so I knew either way whatever I say or do will come out. I didn't want to go back in the bunny ears or be half naked again so I simply went with a truth.

She hummed for a minute before turning to me, "Do you have feelings for Brian?" Her question was so blunt that I didn't know what to do, I just sat there looking at her with the look of a goldfish.

"Wha-what?" I stuttered.

"I said... Do. You. Have. Feelings. For. Brian?" She asked once more punctuating each word.

I blushed and said a simple, "yes."

Silence followed my answer and I stood up and walked away. I ended up at home, crying in my bed over the loss of my friendship with Brian, I knew that we could never come back from this. Ever. Our lifelong friendship was over. Forever.

I cried in bed for days; I just didn't know what to do. In the end, I decided I had to keep on living and that crying over a guy was pointless. There were "plenty of fish in the sea" as my Mum said.

School was a nightmare. Everyone had found out about my feelings, and I was bullied just for having them. I didn't realise having feelings for someone was wrong or that it was against some law, but apparently in the eyes of the student body it was.

I never saw Brian around school. For days, I hung by his locker, waited for him outside of his every class, just to talk to him, but I didn't seen him. At all. I was worried.

So in the end, after school one day, I went round his house. There were no cars on the driveway which was good as it meant his parents were out, and I knocked on the door. There was no answer.

Brian's parents were great and said I was allowed over at any time. I had my own key as I was round there so often, but I wanted to be polite. But in the end, I was fed up of waiting and used it. I entered the house, and walked around trying to look for Brian, but I didn't see him.

Finally, I was standing outside his bedroom, when I finally heard sounds of life. I pressed my ear against the door to try and figure out what was happening; the moans got louder and the moans started to get louder. It was Brian and some girl; I never knew he had a girlfriend, but it would explain why he was so busy lately.

I cracked open the door slightly, just enough to peer in, and I let out a small gasp; on the bed with Brian was Natalie. The sight of them on the bed broke my heart. I turned around to get out of the house as quickly as I could. Then when Brian moaned my name.

Natalie screeched and I heard a smack, which sounds like it really hurt.

"Why the hell did you call that slut's name?!" She screamed.

"Wha-what?" Brian stuttered, his voice was husky and I had never heard it like that before. I really liked it.

"You called out Charlotte's name. Why?" she asked again.

"I don't know..." he trailed off. I didn't want to hear anymore, so I turned around and walked out of the house. I knew I was stupid, how could I have had the smallest amount of hope that he would say he had feelings for me.

Life went back to normal in some ways, I went to school, went to work, came home and cried. A month after the whole 'incident', which is what I am now calling it, something changed in the routine. When I came home from work, Brian was sitting on my bed. It scared me half to death, when seeing him sitting on my bed waiting for me, playing with the bunny ears that I took from the party.

I decided to play it as cool as I possibly could. "Hey," I said trying to figure out why he was here.

"Hey," he sounded broken and it shattered my heart.

"How're you?" I asked, really wanting to know.

"I'm... Charlotte, I'm not good."

"How come?" I asked concerned and sat next to him.

"Charlotte, I can't do this anymore," he said.

"What can't you do?"

"I can't keep being friends with you; it's too hard and it's killing me."

His answer completely floored me, and my heart shattered into a million pieces. Tears welled up in my eyes and started to fall.

"Why?" I sobbed.

"Because..." he started off and then bent his head and kissed me.

It was completely unexpected and I sat there shocked.

This was actually happening; the guy I've been in love with for years is finally kissing me. So why the hell am I not kissing him back?! Kiss him back you idiot.

I kissed him back, it was the most amazing thing ever and I loved it, every minute of it.

Once the kiss was over, Brian looked into my eyes deeply, kissed me softly and whispered the three words I've been wanting to hear for years...

"I love you."